oh yes, midyears are over!! quite fast actually, lasted for three days only. as compared to the few weeks back in secondary school. lol. out of the five papers, i think geog paper sucked the most lah. i spent most of the time counting the number of trains that passed during the two hours plus while everyone else was busy scribbling on their scripts. :/ i dont get why we must do a contrasting subject lah, bet the score will be super contrasting as well. EEYER. its not that i hate geog though, i like the things we learn, but i just don't like studying for the test. who does anyway? haha. but now my hopes of getting a new laptop are completely dashed, not even anywhere near it i bet. :(
went back to school for 5 hours of PW today, whereas almost everyone else had a day off lah. :( but school ended quite early so i went to cine with eric & kaikeng and we did some shopping and caught a movie after that! oh gosh, zohan is seriously very hilarious, in a sexual way. hahaha. :/
and now that midyears are over, everyone's busy chionging PW and tutorials already, but not me! i still cant really be bothered to start lah. shit. still in the holiday cum post exam mood. I NEED TO GO SHOPPING TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER!! :)
why is it things always don't turn out as planned. its as if i shouldn't even put in anymore effort. but i really tried my best already. i'm super sick of all these disappointment, yet more and more pile up and never ever go away. people usually learn to stand up after they fall, but for me, i'm just falling deeper and deeper. i feel as though i have been taken for granted. i can't stand this totally unfair treatment that i don't deserve at all. i'm sorry, but i can't be perfect. in fact, i think i probably have more flaws than anyone else in this world. i can never be good enough. but i havent gave up, and i hope you wont give up on me too. i hate to go to sleep because overnight, things can really take on a drastic change. we can be friends today, but enemies tomorrow. backstabbing sucks, yet some people remain so nonchalent about it. seriously, i cant figure out how exactly is the world functioning. everything seems so superficial. its not that i don't care, but i choose to ignore. because getting myself involved will do me no good except hurt myself even more. and there's no use telling anyone because no one will truly understand. at times like this i wished i could just be a guy, an ignorant & insensitive one, so i can pretend that i don't really care about all these shit anymore. :(
