pictures are finally up :)
at pastamania!
*note the extra hand appearing behind kahyee hahaha
camwhoring in front of breadtalk after we were chased out of pastamania, seems as though we are advertising for juncti8n! lol.
three-quarter of CC :)
& earlier on at plaza sing,
with pinrui
PS: i did not rebond my hair over the holidays! hahaha. :)
eventually i stayed at home today! all the plans were cancelled. haha. so i had cake for lunch & i am going to have cake for dinner again. wah. GET FAT AH. lol. :/
friends that last forever;
because the heart never lies.
boo i cant seem to upload the photos onto blogger, so pictures shall come later! anyway today was a super packed & fulfilling day! i had brunch with my family, rushed off for piano, met up with pinrui after that and then went for fourcharity class gathering! :)
its really good to see some of them again, especially CC! :D although its not really complete because there was only 11 people who turned up, and almost everyone was late. haha pathetic but lots of fun nevertheless! dinner at pastamania and i think we camwhored too much until the waitress had to come and tell us to settle down because we were blocking the path. lol. then walked around at j8 for a while and shopped around for presents. :)
simin's flying back to australia on monday already! and then i'll most probably only get to see her in december. ahh. :(
will you be there for me;
because the heart never lies.
You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going
You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much unknown
Along the way
Then I heard you say
I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is
filled with sorrow and despair
And I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my
footprints in the sand
I see my life
Flash across the sky
So many times have I been so afraid
Ohh yeahh
And just when I
I thought I lost my way
You give me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say
I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is
Filled with sorrow and despair
And I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my
Footprints in the sand
When I'm weary
Well I know you be there and I
Can feel you when you say
I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is
Filled with sadness and despair
Ohh, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my
Footprints in the sand
because the heart never lies.
movie :)
oh yes, midyears are over!! quite fast actually, lasted for three days only. as compared to the few weeks back in secondary school. lol. out of the five papers, i think geog paper sucked the most lah. i spent most of the time counting the number of trains that passed during the two hours plus while everyone else was busy scribbling on their scripts. :/ i dont get why we must do a contrasting subject lah, bet the score will be super contrasting as well. EEYER. its not that i hate geog though, i like the things we learn, but i just don't like studying for the test. who does anyway? haha. but now my hopes of getting a new laptop are completely dashed, not even anywhere near it i bet. :(
went back to school for 5 hours of PW today, whereas almost everyone else had a day off lah. :( but school ended quite early so i went to cine with eric & kaikeng and we did some shopping and caught a movie after that! oh gosh, zohan is seriously very hilarious, in a sexual way. hahaha. :/
and now that midyears are over, everyone's busy chionging PW and tutorials already, but not me! i still cant really be bothered to start lah. shit. still in the holiday cum post exam mood.
I NEED TO GO SHOPPING TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER!! :)
why is it things always don't turn out as planned. its as if i shouldn't even put in anymore effort. but i really tried my best already. i'm super sick of all these disappointment, yet more and more pile up and never ever go away. people usually learn to stand up after they fall, but for me, i'm just falling deeper and deeper. i feel as though i have been taken for granted. i can't stand this totally unfair treatment that i don't deserve at all. i'm sorry, but i can't be perfect. in fact, i think i probably have more flaws than anyone else in this world. i can never be good enough. but i havent gave up, and i hope you wont give up on me too. i hate to go to sleep because overnight, things can really take on a drastic change. we can be friends today, but enemies tomorrow. backstabbing sucks, yet some people remain so nonchalent about it. seriously, i cant figure out how exactly is the world functioning. everything seems so superficial. its not that i don't care, but i choose to ignore. because getting myself involved will do me no good except hurt myself even more. and there's no use telling anyone because no one will truly understand. at times like this i wished i could just be a guy, an ignorant & insensitive one, so i can pretend that i don't really care about all these shit anymore. :(
it hurts but you just don't see it;
because the heart never lies.
pictures time!
last year - cooking spaghetti
this year - cooking cham chowder
last year
this year (same table cloth!)
now, spot the differences similarities!
last year
this year
last year
this year
last year
this year
went to enid's house on tuesday! i feel quite bad not being able to spend time with simin during her short winter break, all because of stupid CTs! :( but it was really fun cooking again at enid's house! feels like deja vu, almost the same thing happened last year after prelims! man, i really miss being in sec four. even studying for O's is not as tough as this. haha.
studied at amk library for three days consecutively with yanzhu! every morning 10am sharp, visiting the cafe everyday trying different food & drinks and spending our entire allowance there. haha. so i have been doing nothing else but spending 15 hours studying for these 3 days! managed to revise quite a bit, but there's still a lot not covered. and exams are in two days! die already. :(
i'm seriously looking forward to the end of midyears. got some great plans coming up! so exciting! hahaha.
oh & i just took a risk of being boxed by chewpin on tuesday because i just posted lyrics again! LOL.
nobody can be perfect;
because the heart never lies.
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
because the heart never lies.
click here!
back from famine camp! supposed to starve for 30 hours but dumb dumb chewpin and i were on the phone till 4am the night before, then the both of us woke up super late and didnt have time to eat anything before the camp so in the end we starved for 45 hours instead! :/
they split us up according to schools, so me & chewps were in the same group luckily! went for the One Life Experience thing and both of us were tested HIV positive! haha. then we went for some civilisation game which was not exactly fantastic but quite meaningful i guess.
the first night was quite a torture for me, because our stomaches kept making weird out-of-tune noises, and then i had to sleep on the hard ground because gay didnt turn up for the camp and she didnt bring the sleeping bag for me, so eventually i didnt even get to sleep, just tossed and turned around, (got kicked by chewps at 3am in the morning) & messaged many different people throughout the night until chewps woke up & i koped her sleeping bag for 1 hour. :(
somehow my stomach stopped making noises by the second day, i guess it was too tired to even protest. haha. set off to tampines to collect old newspapers and clothes. it was supposed to last from 9am-2pm but our group was super efficient and we completed all the allocated blocks even before 12noon so we had lots of free time left. in the end, the entire group collapsed and slept at the void deck, even the facilitator! lol. then back at school we had an extra hour to spare and we used it to sleep too! after cleaning up, which our group was super efficient as usual, we were 2 hours ahead of schedule so once again we slept. so all in all i gathered my sleep by all these short breaks we had. hahaha. and perhaps thats the thing about our school, super efficient but no life at all? instead of playing games like what other groups did, we just keep sleeping. i bet if we had books with us, we will just end up mugging. LOL.
camp ended with a concert with performances by By Definition and many more, it was quite cool but my stupid head was throbbing together with the drum beats. haha. :/ broke fast at 8pm finally, they actually promised us a good meal but it was like any other, cai fan. in the end i went for prata with mummy and stuffed myself with lots of fruits at home. haha. so actually its STARVE vs. STUFF :/
oh my, now we're only left with one week of holidays. there's still so many things not done! i have yet to meet up with alot alot of people. & i have lots of revision to catch up with as well. lastly, not forgetting to catch the GSS! :D
you and i collide;
because the heart never lies.
leaving for famine camp tmrw.
no i'm not the least sad that i'll be deprived of food, but instead, i think thats the main reason why i'm actually paying 30 bucks to starve, because i seriously need to shed some weight! just take mugging session at chewps' house today for instance, we started snacking right after a heavy lunch, and i still got another wedding banquet to attend afterwards. BLEAGH.
however, i'm quite reluctant to go for camp because i won't be able to mug (yes, i'm a mugger wannabe!) i havent even started on geog, when there's like 200 over pages of compulsory readings plus lots and lots of info to stuff into my brain. hai. i think out of the three weeks of holidays so far, the most productive day was yesterday and i managed to complete 5 chapters of maths! but the rest are topics that i dont understand so i'm more or less stuck again. haha.
ah i want to go for the IT fair at suntec! or rather, I NEED TO GO. my computer hangs like every one hour and it gets so freaking annoying lah. mummy promised to get me a laptop if i do well for midyears! but her stupid target is like 3As which is impossible for me. so there goes my laptop. :/
i'm not exactly an avid soccer fan, but i heard from my dad that my uncle lost 100K when Italy lost the match. wtf, i can easily think of much better ways to spent that $0.1 million! just imagine how much stuff i can get from GSS with that huge sum of money. hai so much for gambling. :/
tada, i'll be back on monday! NO COMPUTER FOR THE WEEKENDS. :(
all it takes is one word;
because the heart never lies.
more photos!
taken with miss yee after collecting our sgc :)
mirror #2
mirror #3 aka the band room mirror haha
dinner at NYNY :)
oh yes yes, simin's finally back from melbourne during her school break! it was really great to see her again! & she bought us super cute hand made sweets from there. :) the four of us finally got to meet up! went back to the school to collect our SGCs tgt then we toured around the school for a little while! visited our ex-fourcharity classroom and also the band room, surprisingly it was not locked so we could all go in and write on the board. :D
then simin left and the three of us went for dinner at NYNY. after which, jiaying & i went to toapayoh to meet chermms! the both of them had some interrogation going on, while i bought stuff from the body shop! next was icekimo with chermms and we played "mahjong" there. haha.
thanks CK for walking me home! well, that also meant i spent yet another day not studying again! HOW HOW. :/
anyway went to visit popo at the gleneagles yesterday. thank god, she's recovering well! amazing or what, within 6 months, my grandma went for the exact same bypass operation as my grandpa, the both of them were sent to the same hospital, the both of them were operated by the same doctor & the both of them stayed in the same ICU, so it felt somewhat like deja vu when i stepped into the hospital yesterday. oh well. but i hope it wont have to happen again! :/
& if i had the ability to, i'd scrape PW and spare everyone the agony.
now, anyone wants to study with me, overnight at the airport? :)
damn i wish it never started;
because the heart never lies.
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved
So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what i be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours
Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
I like one big family (2nd time: I like happy family)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
No please, don't hesitate
no more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is your's!
because the heart never lies.
photos :D
needless to say, they are the best :D
catching up at seoul gardens
lol eric's pointing to the woman who looks like someone (guess who!)
NSSN "sec fours" saxes - the triple Js as well!
camwhoring
MASTERPIECE :)
dinner yesterday with eric, jiaying & the other jingwen. i finally got the chance to wear my sax tee! :) oh man, i sure miss nssn times (when we didnt even have to mug :/) & we sure had a lot of catching up to do! spent over 3 hours at seoul until we were the last customers to leave the place! hahaha. then after dinner we tried the 16 multishots thing but we couldnt rotate in time, and so we ended up taking single shots and piecing them tgt. lol.
but sadly i couldnt join the nssn people at the gathering today. hope they had fun though! i miss them alot alot alot. :D
& on a random note, i think my eyebags are really super ugly now. getting darker & darker day after day because of my serious lack of sleep. argh. :/
well time heals all wounds;
because the heart never lies.
-Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
-Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
-If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
-The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
-A kiss is just a kiss until you find the one you love. A hug is just a hug until its from the one you're thinking of. A dream is just a dream until you make it come true. LOVE is just a word until its proven to you.
-If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours. If it doesn't, then it never was.
-Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
-What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
-You can only go as far as you push!
-Actions speak louder than words.
-Some people make the world special by just being in it.
-Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
-Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
-A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
-Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
-Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us. When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
-True friendship never ends.
-Friends are forever.
-Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
-Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
-Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
took all these from an email. somehow i just find it so true. ♥
its finally time to let go;
because the heart never lies.
i promise, no more drinks until the end of midyears. yesterday's was more than enough. time to settle down and study!!
& pray hard and hope that my grandma will recover soon!!
everything has a limit, so does my patience;
because the heart never lies.
SNSB POP 2008 (:
uhh, guitar? then went back to st nicks to watch the pop ceremony. :)
gosh, feels like not too long ago when we handed our job over to the yellows, and now its the blues already. two years passed just like that. DAMN FAST! i can still rmbr the first time i took over their drills and i was so used to calling them sec ones, but right now they are sec threes already, and the new leaders of the band! i think they really grew up! heh, probably not in terms of size, some of them are still so small & cute, but they really matured a lot. & i have no doubt that they will be able to lead well and bring back the gold (or even honours) for syf next year! :D
lots of camwhoring of course! but sadly my camera's battery was exhausted even before i could finish taking photos with the juniors.. oh wells. then went for dinner with the section at cafe cartel. yes, my second time there in a week! i think the amount of bread i eat on these two days is enough to make a full loaf. :/
staying at my grandma's for the weekends. probably back on monday..
no use running away from reality;
because the heart never lies.
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gonna be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
because the heart never lies.
this is probably the third time in the year when i feel like a totally useless i-d-i-o-t. as if all that shit is not enough, i lost my phone! and the stupidest thing is, i dont even know where & when i actually lost it.
my smile is fading;
because the heart never lies.
argh, i feel like a robot following a fixed routine. a vicious cycle perhaps. :/
& it goes like this:
-wake up at 7am feeling all grouchy due to lack of sleep
-head for school just for a few pathetic make ups
-spend alot on lunch and getting fatter & fatter
-tell myself i must study when i get home (which never happens)
-tug into my comfortable bed for "a short rest"
-wake up at 9pm to watch some random tv show
-come online and waste my time viwawa-ing or blogging (like now)
-finally get down to do one pathetic page of revision at 1am
-try and sleep at 3am feeling guilty cause i wasted my day yet again
& despite feeling so upset with myself, i still repeat the cycle practically everyday. sigh, whats my problem. & this stupid unhealthy bad habit is making me sick. :(
sometimes i really hate myself for not having that little bit more discipline and self-restrain. :/
back to zero;
because the heart never lies.
This is for my people
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my people
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye
You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye
This is for my people
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my people
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye
i am so hooked on to this song now, i wonder why. :)
because the heart never lies.
PHOTOS :D
ooh, beautiful scenery at sentosa! (tsk the smoke though)
the band preparing - & the waiters waiting to serve the first dish!
my work area :)
taken while we were strolling at sentosa!
ben lim, he's prolly on his way to perth now! haha.
jingwen, nat, sheqal
NSSN 07 - ben lim, nat lim, sheqal lim, AW jingwen :)
so the wedding performance at sentosa was over yesterday! felt kind of extra being the only girl in the band, & i only spent two short days with the guys, many of whom i still dont know, but it was fun nevertheless! :) but didnt really camwhore much though, what to do, im the only girl there! hahaha. and my toes hurt from walking around sentosa in that heels of mine. heh heh. then there was free flow of drinks outside the ballroom so you know what we had lah. :)
reached home quite late, and i still had to chiong geog tutorial for lesson today, but in the end it was only lecture and we didnt even go through the DRQs. wth, i could have caught up on my precious sleep instead! haha. surprisingly i managed to survive 2 hrs of geog & 2 hrs of maths without even dozing off for a second! :)
was supposed to study with gay after lessons, but ended up doing a little bit of shopping instead. & here's my catch of the day week!
once a saxophonist, always a saxophonist!
i was just randomly sweeping through the shirts and i caught my eyes on this lovely one! i was quite hesitant to buy it at first cause im already super broke from buying so much clothes that i havent even got the chance to wear, but then the lady said there's only 5 pieces for this design so i just had to grab it! so gay sponsored 10 bucks and i paid the rest. YAY! :D
in the end i was too excited about the shirt and i didnt feel like studying anymore so i went home to sleep instead. haha. but unfortunately my good mood was destroyed not long after i got home. :(
i hate him for being such a headstrong freak and always ignoring my presence.
i hate her for being such an insensitive fool and always neglecting my feelings.
if only there's a way out of all these. :(
I NEED MORE ICE CREAM, NOW.
i doubt you actually care;
because the heart never lies.
